sometimes ive felt stuck in a place and knowing that i didnt want to be there, knowing there was someplace better, made it really hard to stay... at other times, not saying this applies to you, it seemed i was kept in a place longer than i wanted to be because there was still someting essential i needed to learn in that place, maybe it was how to hold my breathe longer and nourish my own inner strength a little bit more..

i hope you can persevere as long as you need to rissie.. you have us here to vent to and i know venting really helps