Things were pretty much great before covid. We had great chemistry and loved each other very much. Things started to change about a year into the pandemic, she was clearly feeling very tired of waiting. To her credit she continued to wait for another year and I'm very grateful of that. Lately though, she's been very short with me and we have been arguing so frequently. Her kindness towards me now almost seems dependant on what I can do for her. What she wants is for me to come back and see her. I have lost her trust, which is understandable. But breaking up with me hasn't made things any easier for me and has left me feeling more confused now and reluctant to go. I really do want to make it work but I don't know how after all the arguments we've had, and that she seems to struggle greatly with her patience towards me.
Maybe there is something I'm not doing, and if this is all my fault I'm willing to accept it. I just want to salvage things but it's almost like the person I knew is no longer there.