Thanks for all the responses.
She can't come to me as I have a very difficult home life unfortunately. We have met multiple times before covid, and we were always great together so she does know what I'm like in person, she just wants me to come after two years of not being able to, basically.
I have always thought She was quite unwilling to come to a mutual agreement about things but I overlooked it because everything else was good.
The problem I have is that if I do leave to meet her my family wouldn't allow me home due to the risk of covid. She thinks this is ridiculous but I really don't know what to think anymore.
To be clear though after about a year of covid she wanted me to come back, I just haven't been able to due to lots of life problems. None of which are enough to justify it to her.