No one on the forums especially the admins are our to get you. Everyone is nice here and it is a safe space. You don't need to hurt yourself in order to be safe. Try to do some deep breathing. Breathe in for a count of four. Hold for a count of four. Breathe out for a count of four. Hold for a count of four. Repeat. Repeat. Repeat. Repeat. Repeat. Repeat. Repeat. HUGS Kit