I was hoping to get some input on some thing that my new T has said that have made me uncomfortable. Some of it is hard to describe without going into a ton of detail, but I hope I can express it clearly.

I am in school studying to become a therapist. One of the conversations with my new T has been about my “walls.” She says that I put off a kind of anxious energy that she picks up on. She said that my future clients might pick up on it too. She read a letter to ex T and pointed out that I had a “rich internal world” that I don’t portray face to face. I felt insecure by these comments because while I do have social anxiety, I felt sort of criticized by her and that she’s judging me. It also makes me insecure for when I see clients some day. I also feel like I’m much more anxious in therapy where I’m expected to be super vulnerable than I’d necessarily be on the other side of the couch.

The other thing is she has brought up weight since I’ve struggled with an eating disorder in the past. I told her I adopted the “health at every size philosophy,” basically my view of that being I focus more on how my body feels, rather than focusing on a certain number. I told her I still value my health of course and that doesn’t mean I don’t care about what I am putting into my body. She nodded in agreement and said, “Yeah, I mean we shouldn’t be like Lizzo.” It’s not that I think Lizzo is either healthy or unhealthy, but I am sensitive to others’ comments on bodies and this made me really uncomfortable. All in all, I guess I just feel a pretty judgemental vibe from her and I’m not sure if my feelings are valid. My previous T felt much more encouraging and accepting than this new T. I never felt judged by previous T or that I needed to act a certain way (I.e. not anxious). Am I being too oversensitive with new T’s comments?