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Originally Posted by Have Hope
You don't really take the feedback here into consideration and you keep doing the same exact things to yourself: pushing and insisting upon a relationship that is likely abusive and very unhealthy. I don't quite understand why you're not listening to any of us on here who are giving you heartfelt and caring replies and advice. But it's your choice, of course. You want to be with someone who is unhealthy for you. You refuse to give up this toxic dance between you two, and you refuse to listen to advice. C'est la vie.
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It’s not that I’m refusing to listen. Not at all. I know this relationship is toxic and I’ve known that for some time: I am listening to everyone here and considering all sides. It is really hard to let him go. I know I need to. Sounds like he is. He never even responded to me when I asked about bringing the book by tonight. I have this big fear of being alone. I also know that things can be fixed. Whether it’s possible on this case or not, who knows. I do need to accept I have to let go. Trying to hold onto this is my hoping to keep trying. I just feel sad like I don’t want to lose him. When I moved here, I had a hard time making friends. I still don’t have any here. Other than my family here, he’s been the closest one to me. I am completely alone without him. It’s hard for me to make friends and connections here. I’ve tried. I guess my being completely alone is why I’m really hanging onto this.