It’s not about having a boyfriend to make me not feel alone. I’ve lived alone and spent most of my adult life alone. I’ve had relationships and was married during this time, but I’ve been alone most of the time. I’m tired of being alone. Any benefit from it is exhausted for me. I’ve never particularly cared for it. Some people just don’t like being alone. My biggest fear is ending up completely alone the rest of my life. I want a relationship. I want someone to settle down with. I wouldn’t feel so bad if I actually had some friends. It’s only my parents here. They’re often busy. I’m by myself most of the time.