TRIGGER WARNING ABOUT T Being ill and loss of T

I have have been posting a lot less here. When my long term T died everyone here was so supportive. Current T (whom have been seeing since 10 months before long term Ts death) is still alive but ill. I have been seeing her twice a week since November because of work burnout amd other life stressers. So that is the back story.

At my first appointment of this past week everything was normal until she "reminded" me she will be out all next week due to surgery. I knew nothing about surgery and said I hope it is nothing serious. Her response was "The prognosis is really good" . She apologized. Then we had to end the session. For the next 2 days I agonized over the possible surgeries that have a good prognosis but would have her missing just a week. I also didn't know how to handle the next session. She has thr right to privacy and wanted to honor that but also feared losing her. Since long term T's death the fear of losing her is very real. So I decided I was not going to ask or even bring up the suject.

The appointment started by us talking about my job. Then it became very quite as I didnt know what to say. Afterq a couple of minutes she apologized to not telling me about the surgery 2 weeks earlier when she thought she told all her clients. I told her it was fine because things happen. I didn't say it but the appointments 2 weeks ago we very intense and we were able to get to a significant core issue and making connections. Again I went quiet trying to figure out what to talk about. So she said she was going to poke a bit. She started by qsking if I was upset she hadn't told me earlier, I shook my head no. Then she asked of it was because I would not have the support next week. Again I shook my head no (that thought had never even crossed my mind). Finally, she asked if I was worried about her health and I shook my head yes.

She sait it is okay to talk about it qnd I responded by telling jer I want to respect her privacy. She asked me if I wanted to know about the surgery.. We discussed if I really did. In the end, we decided it would be better for me to know. Then she told me she has breast cancer. They caught it REALLY early thanks to very frequent mammograms. She told me the treatment plan. The doctor told her she would be fine physically to return to work this week but recommended taking a week off for mental health reasons.

Near the end of the appointment we talked about there not being a a right or wrong way to handle disclosing such information. So she asked if she made the right choice in telling me.

It feels different knowing she will be out all week than it does when she is on vacation. I keep feeling the desire to support her. I know thr best way to do so is keep her and her family in my prayers