I stayed away from here yesterday when I needed help. I was freaking out and contemplating SH. Luckily my husband came home right before I did anything. Argued with pdoc today he raised my AD. He wants to see me in person next time. That scares me. I'm much better over the phone then in person conversationally. I didn't tell him about yesterday. My husband will come with me next time. I really don't like my pdoc but my meds are the most stable I've been. So I'm stuck with him.