I'm so sorry you've experienced multiple traumas. I've found most people here to be very non judgmental and gentle. Unlike some professionals (sadly ) (I read in another post you've been dismissed and misunderstood by some professionals, I can relate. This can and does retraumatize. It does not make anyone ''bad'' or ''weak'' having been traumatized in childhood by monsters. It does not make anyone ''weak'' finding it hard to open up who has been repeatedly misjudged by ... those who enjoy judging. I'm sorry about the long post. (/rant) I hope you keep posting and find it helpful here, as I do