I am considering transitioning out of my niche field in digital marketing to a digital marketing account manager role. I just reached out to a former colleague who works at a new agency to ask how he likes it there since they have an opening. I may apply, if he gives positive feedback. I will ask him if he's willing to give me a reference, too.

I feel kind of desperate to leave my new/current company. I made the analogy to my closest girlfriend of what it's like trying to work there: it's like facing an enormous mountain that is steep with lots of rocks and hurdles, while having bad/hurt knees and a large 50-pound backback on your back, and saying "no, I cannot hike up this mountain". That's how I feel about the challenges I face in my new job. There's SO many challenges that I don't think I am up for facing. I am kind of just done with facing massive challenges at work.

My last job really did me in and did me no favors - it stressed me out SO much, and then I went head-first into a new job with even GREATER stress and challenges. ARGH.

I am waiting to hear back from Paid Family Medical Leave to see if my appeal is accepted and whether they will provide me with financial support while I've been away from work. I am anxiously awaiting their response.

I was going to try to return to work by April 4th, but I am dreading the conversation I must have with my CEO about where I'm really at, mentally and in my current condition. My father, wo is a psychiatrist, says I need to be at least 75% better to return to work, and that my employer will likely require a doctor's note saying I can return to work. I have my appt this Thursday with the psychiatrist with whom I am working.

It's just hard to imagine, even without my condition, that I can actually succeed in my new job. The mountain of challenges is just SO BIG. Then add on to that my condition, and I really don't have the confidence that I will make it through without getting let go or fired for not being able to do the job.