Dear pj56, actually I sent you a reply, but for some reason it hasn't shown up on the screen. So let's hope this reply gets to you !!!
Please, pj, see my blog at:
http://john4.psychcentral.net/wp
Feel free to e-mail me at:
john.ryan4@virgin.net
or you can send me a pm here at Psychcentral. Pj, I, too, went to the psychiatric hospital (twice), and it worries methat you "don't feel good". I've had the most horrific battle with depression these past years, so I empathise with you. We all here will help you get out of that "very bad place". Please may I ask: are you getting the appropriate social services' help ( must admit I don't know how they work where you are, as I live in London, England).
Here's gunning especially for you, pj. One very slow, big hug to you.