I can't help myself. I'm sorry, for me and for you. Its like an addiction. A puzzle that needs solving but I can't seem to solve. I just can't keep away from it and it's driving me crazy. I wish I could know. I wish I could be a part of it. I wish, I wish, I wish. But I also know it wouldn't be what I dream it to be. So maybe I'm better off outside? Miss you. Miss seeing you. Miss the life I had with you in it.