I sent a message into my endocrongolist to see if I can go back on my testosterone. I just feel like complete crap physically without it. Plus my blood doctor did say I could go back on but my mom was making me wait for some reason. So I'm waiting to hear back from him before I go over for my blood work that the blood doctor wanted. In case he wants me to get some as well. I didn't sleep too well last night but I've eaten enough and had enough water so I shouldn't be feeling crappy as a result of that. I just took one of my last 2 zofrans. After the last one I'll just have to hang on until April 15th or 16th. Whatever date my primary appointment is.

I stopped at the grocery store and got the last 4 cans of nitro Pepsi they had. I don't give a **** if I took them all. That stuff is super hard to find and I've been looking all over at multiple stores for over a week and haven't found any after the initial 6 cans I got when they first came out.

Gonna take my second valium now. I took my first one at 3AM. I had one can of zero sugar Coke but everything else was caffeine free. I havent had any iced coffees or anything like I normally do. So I have no idea why my anxiety is this huge. Everytime I stand up I get dizzy and I don't know why. Again I've eaten and had a couple caffeine free Cokes. I'm still waiting to hear back from my doctor.

I'm ready to just say f it and just get the blood work that has to be done so I can beat the lunch crowds. I feel off I just don't know whats up. I've felt off for a couple of days. My therapist thinks my procedure thursday ****ed with me mentally. I think shes overeacting a bit. Although I do not want to go through it again, I don't think it tramatized me the way she thinks it did.