I have to leave the house today. Oh, how I hate leaving the house these days-- past few years. I have therapy. It's not the being out so much as the preparation for leaving. I just loathe it. I don't know what to do about it. I don't know what others do about it. I don't know if I have diagnosable (that's not the proper word, but you know what I mean) Agoraphobia, but the effect on my life is essentially the same.