I hope whenever I do go back on my injections I don't get feelings for you. So far I haven't really except for a couple moments. But being off them for over a month and then going back on them may bring back stuff I don't want to feel. The thing is at this moment I don't like having crushes on people but when I'm on any kind of hormones I really enjoy getting turned on by people since it gives me this almost kinda high feeling. But I think it confuses cis straight women when I like them. Because they forget that I am a dude who still has a vagina.

Oh and that table was for sure very close to the couch that one time. Which is why you were watching me and making sure I didn't knock it over and everything on it. I noticed yesterday it was moved back.

I was honest with you about the melatonin. I told you I'm up to 40mil a night and I think your only response was like "dude!" Or something like that. I am trying. Really I am. But once the injections get into my system I don't know whats gonna happen. With my transference T I was an angry horny asshole. With you, I'm not. Hopefully it stays that way.