I'll be taking on a second part time job... I'll make some extra money - Not sure how I'll handle it but I'll try.

I'm only doing it for money + to help people out.. It could be good for me idk. It could also be bad.

I'll need 2x 15mg Dexedrines twice a day - So I'll ask my psychiatrist about that. It's the only way that I'll have enough motivation/energy to do it.

Although my meds are pretty good. Zopiclone is a lifesaver for falling asleep. I've been on zopiclone for 3 years without any problems.

Then.. Idk if I'll have time for myself - And what to do.. It's like I'm swimming in a pool of colourful nonsense.

It's like all of us, talking here.. while a crack opens up in the ground and we are seeing people, falling into hell - and we're just holding onto the thing.