You were right when you said I was paranoid but for the wrong reasons. I don't think wanting out of my relationship is indicative of paranoia, but thinking he wired the house was. I'm taking my PRN antipsychotic now. Maybe going back on naltrexone would be good too. I'm not going to contact my NP but I'll bring it up at our next appt (TBD).
Also, maybe don't make me remind myself how good feeling high feels in the future.