I think only you can tell that because everyone is different with what's too vulnerable for them in terms of opening up too much, plus the relationship dynamics matters too, do you have any gut feelings about it?

I just want to say that ok, this does sound like you took a risk that's out of your comfort zone, which can be totally okay if you think it's okay, but I do also want to say, I don't understand what makes you feel like it was a big risk if you had a lot of therapy with her where you already talked about intimate stuff like this.

So like what made you think that you might bother her with it. I think if she's a decent human being at all then she wouldn't be bothered let alone annoyed (!) by any of the things that you wrote or may write in future if they would be anything like this letter. The stuff you wrote is totally fine.

So like....Did anything ever happen before where she behaved that way, bothered, annoyed? Or is this depression, anxiety talking, etc? (Don't have to answer here, just putting this out there for you to think about it. But if you want to say more, feel free to)

I mean did she ever say anything that clearly indicated that she would have thoughts or concerns like that?

What I personally really dislike and find insulting is if someone assumes too fast that I'm so overly invested in them just because I like seeing them, or am attentive or caring about them.... It always just makes me think such people are covert narcissists or have such traits. Like they secretly want to think of themselves as having such great qualities that others would be grovelling in front of them like that.

If your therapist was so great and is a decent human being at all then she shouldn't really get worried like that, like I mean I understand if a therapist wants to make sure this doesn't happen, for your own benefit obviously, but something in the way you put this is so "off" to me. "Too intense", "too grateful", like why would she make criticisms like that of your self-expression? Or are these your own self-criticism?

After being around some "friends" that got at my self-expression in subtle or even gaslighty ways....I feel like I get hyperaware of things like this.

Totally just my own personal question if you don't mind (out of personal interest in the topic in general)....What do you call being your walls up?

I mean there is no such thing as "how to feel". You feel whatever way you feel (or not feel) and that's fine (not feeling is also fine!!).

Just my suggestion but you could just ask her what frequency and timing of contact is okay for her.

If this is true, (again) why be concerned that you might bother or annoy her now? Worth considering perhaps (again). I hope some of what I wrote helps. I wish you luck to getting over your vulnerability hangover.