There are things that your mind is always processing, constantly analyzing - Possible trauma.

Once you find the answers (That life is as real as it is unreal), they will likely go away BUT.. You need to stay on antipsychotics/antidepressants/Lamictal... + Taking benzos at the right time (Only you personally know when is the best time to take them - Which overrides the fear of dependency but also not too far to the opposite, causing dependency). Then slowly taper when ready.

It goes as deep as your mind grasps into reality and different for everyone - Depending on which of your life experiences that you tend to think are good or bad + Internal values, identity, morals, fears.

My last dissociative episode was in October 2021, second last was in November 2021 the third last time was in February of 2021 (My last panic attack). 2020, I had ~40 dissociative panic attacks. They were good for me? Idk.. The olanzepine helped greatly. I tried stopping it around a week ago and I felt quite overwhelmed.

I still need the olanzepine.. It is the greatest med..

I don't know how my mom never gets dissociated and it would be really bad if she did. My dad I think, has constant depersonalization (Because I hear him in my head when I have depersonalization) - Some type of schizotypal PD thing when you have depersonalization but don't realize because it has been so long..

The best thing to do is to not think about what dissociation is too much like I did. I'm on a DP/DR FB support group and I have a lot of empathy for those people..

What I do when I feel like my eyes are zig zagging, I breath in, and out once or twice (Importantly, I focus completely on those 1-2 breaths) like a mind trick... And then I forget about it.

It's very good to count the days since last panic attack - Whatever works for you. It gets better with time. A lot of people in their 20's get panic attacks and then they go away as they get older.