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cartoonhero: A lot of it is random gibberish but some is quite persecutory in a sense (ie they want me dead)...

No idea if the following will be helpful to you or not but a model I've found helpful for understanding my own experience is that of ego collapse, or more specifically -- the death of one's sense of self-identity. For this reason, death was a common theme throughout my own experience and that of many others I've spoken with.

If that is also true for you, the following links may contain some additional insights:

- Psychosis & Ego Collapse

- The Inner Apocalypse

- How To Produce An Acute Schizophrenic Break