If you do not understand the reason why you are there IP, take a look around you. Is being IP what you want?

I believe that IP only helps sometimes, and when I kept going to IP places I lost sight of who I was and wanted to become. I found my mind going to dark places. And then blocking those dark places from my active mind. It's called dissociation.

The mind has power to re-direct, when given cues. What once was, does not have to "always" be.