I am so far off the deep end with this tap water anxiety reaction. None of my meds so far today worked. None of my 3 valiums. Or my 150mil topamax. Or my 20mil geodon. Or my lamictal or propalanol. I just had 3 Cokes and one iced tea. I drink soda plus coffee somedays and don't have this sort of anxiety. Its the tap water which is why I switched to bottled water but my dumb self was too lazy to get a bottle this morning so I grabbed a glass from the tap. Big mistake. I have had crippling anxiety all day. So my next step is to eat dinner super early even though I'm not hungry so I can take my PM geodons early. I haven't heard yet from my doctor so I guess I just contiune to focus on my weight loss and wait until my appointment in May. I'm kinda frustrated because at my last appointment he was toting himself as being so responsive to messages yet this is the second one I've sent. At least my weight is finally going down after being stuck in the same spot for 11 days. First it was confusing. Then it was making me angry. Then I was finding it funny. But then once I started finding it funny then it went down again. So I don't know. Maybe it was stress. Buttoned shirts fit me now since my hips are very narrow now. I got a black and a white long sleeve kinda dress shirt today.