I’ve been feeling really terrible about my therapy session last week and I had therapy again today expecting I would talk about it and I didn’t. At all. So I still feel bad about what happened. I know I should have brought it up but I don’t know why I didn’t.

I’m debating whether or not therapy is for me because I feel like the main thing I want to work on is self esteem and awareness of my emotions but I feel like my therapist points out my flaws (so I can be aware but still) and doesn’t really acknowledge my emotions when I bring them up. Like if I’m feeling a certain emotion, we’ll try to reframe it or change it when I am really trying to figure out how to feel my feelings. If I wanted to reframe it, why would I come to therapy instead of just avoiding it because there’s the same end result. I’ve pushed down the feeling whether through reframe or avoidance.

I also got a new job where I would be working typical daytime hours and would have to leave early one day a week to be able to keep attending therapy. Is it worth it enough for that when I could just reframe on my own and not have to miss any work or be told something that makes me feel worse about myself?

I have had some really good sessions with this therapist but I don’t know if this is working for me anymore.