After months and months of binge eating every single day, yesterday I didn’t, well because of means and opportunity were not there. And today, I’ve been fighting so so hard. Fighting temptation, fighting urges to go buy stuff. In the end, I lost… I caved… I couldn’t fight it anymore…

We won some school hampers recently and temptation is right in my face, right there, right in the kitchen, just waving at me. And so, I pinched one of the bars that didn’t seem to stand out (and hopefully won’t be missed).

I feel like hell. So bad for losing this battle again and for failing again. Why do I keep eating? Why can’t I stop? So fed up of being like this. When does it end? I can’t deal with feelings, I just can’t deal with them…