3 days until Awesome T is back and I get a “real” session! Before he left he asked for a start from my rhubarb when I split it up in the spring… the rhubarb is split and his is sitting in a pot ready to go. Once the rhubarb started growing the wait became nearly unbearable. I still feel connected to him and we are OK but it has definitely taken a toll on our work together. Once he is back it is going to take a bit to build the relationship back up to where it feels safe to work again. Some of my coping has been healthier than others… I have isolated myself really badly… but the house is cleaner and I am eating a little better.
Art T and I survived with no major blow ups. I missed our last session due to a scheduling miscommunication… I was an hour late when I got there so missed our appointment but she was in the kitchen (she leaves 30min between clients) so I went in… she started crying… I rolled my eyes… she kept hugging me (I’m OK with that)… all I could think was “OMG a bit much!” But… she knows it isn’t like me and apparently she was super worried.
So now… is it Thursday yet?????
Oh… and awesome T is changing his schedule and no longer working our usual time. I was OK with that… but he forgot to make time for me forgetting he wouldn’t be there my usual time… so I am not sure when I will be able to see him again after Thursday… but I am trusting he will make it right.