I think it’s pretty clear that you are self medicating so your meds probably need to be looked into but I also think it’s pretty useless to try and adjust medication in an active user. It’s really a catch 22 but no I don’t believe she’s trying to fob you off, I think you’re looking for ways to self sabotage and if you can convince yourself that your bf has wired you and your therapist isn’t doing her job you can push them away and say, see I’m alone. And rationalize more drug use.