My Support Forums - View Single Post - Bipolar check-in #64

*Beth* · Apr 05, 2022, 05:49 PM

I just had my (last!) appointment with my (former) pdoc, the harpy. I explained to her that I have increased the Gabapentin by 300mg. and that my anxiety is now under control. I am able to function, to live life. She flipped her cookies and said stuff about losing her license because I increased my medication without her permission. I told her that her medical license is not my responsibility, but that my responsibility is to take care of myself so that I have the best mental health possible.

We had a nasty argument (power struggle, basically). After 20 minutes I ended it by telling her that I will be making a formal complaint about her, and that we are done. I hung up.

I called the clinic and asked for a complaint form to be sent to me. I explained why I need the form. The receptionist I spoke with told me that a patient earlier today had called to make a complaint about the same pdoc. She said that "a lot of people are having problems with that doctor." The woman should not be in practice.

I made an appointment with a doctor at the clinic who apparently specializes in helping people get off meds such as Klonopin. I may or may not keep that appointment - I probably will, just to check out his approach. But the good news is that I have the Monday appointment with a different clinic where I'll meet the new med provider. I have enough Gabapentin (plus a refill) to make it to that appointment.

I'm literally shaking all over. Yet, I am proud of myself for standing my ground, and for following through with other options. I look forward to making the complaint about the b**** - and being DONE with her. I hate burning bridges, but I've learned that sometimes it has to be done.

Thanks for being there, my friends. Thank you for listening. I'm going to do some work, change my focus, and try my best to calm down.

~**~**~***LOVE and PEACE vibes to all*~~*~**~**