I know it was my decision not to have any sessions this week to try and give myself some space to think everything through. But yeah, I’m regretting that now. Another 6 days before I can potentially see you again if I decide to continue and already after only 5 days since I last saw you, it feels like you’re almost a complete stranger.
I’m not sure why I thought cancelling a few sessions would give me clarity. All it’s doing is making me more confused and creating painful emotions around abandonment. Even though I chose this. Will my brain ever be normal? I’m tired T. I’m not sure how I keep on going.