For 17 years now struggling with multiple severe issues and cannot find the proper treatment. I am 48 now and completely hopeless than ever before especially with my life being totally empty, boring, alone. Now I reached out to psychiatrists and waiting to hear back and am terrified to go back on psych meds but I feel there is no other option now. I just hate all the serious side effects I get from them and they hardly help at all. Just really afraid of taking them and worried that they will not help either.

And it is extremely difficult also to find a good psychiatrist!!

I wish there was a safer, more effective alternative to Klonopin too. I hardly take it but seems to be the only thing that calms me down a bit.

I also lay in my bed paralyzed in fear and hopelessness and cannot get myself to do even the littlest things that I know will help. 😔