It’s actually taken me a while to find the courage to post this, I’m having issues with feeling like I’m being needy recently and I mention this because it ties in with this particular experience.

One of my favourite colleagues is leaving and hopefully for a better job - we’ve worked together a few years now and tonight it struck me that much of that time was the pandemic. We were essential workers which came with it’s own stresses and worries. I think this might be complicating my reaction. We were a very close knit tight team - and much of this time we couldn’t see our own family and friends because of restrictions, in a way it felt like we were a little family, we had each other’s backs.

I’ve lost colleagues I’ve liked before, sadly once to death (that was sudden and no one got to say goodbye), but this feels different somehow, I feel so sad about it. Obviously I’m happy for her success but I’m just sad that she’s going because she’s such a great colleague. Hard working, organised, fair minded, I don’t have a bad word to say about her.

I feel needy as I say, I’m not fully sure what that’s about, like I should just get over this and it shouldn’t matter but yet it does. Even posting here I feel needy - which is silly because that is what this place is for.