all day I've been thinking about how much I'd like to beat that b**** psychiatrist. I keep imagining myself beating her until she's on the ground, kicking her until she's bloody and screaming for help, and sobbing while apologizing to me for tormenting me like she has. I hate her. I really hate her so much. I am traumatized by her, things she said. Calling me "my friend" - I cringed every time she'd say that. Telling me "I really do care about you." Phony liar if ever I met one. Saying "I don't know what you're going to do when you run out of Gabapentin" - like she's the only doctor on the planet. Rage, just rage.