@BethRags I’m so so sorry that your pdoc spoke to you and treated you like that. That is absolutely AWFUL!! You’re right, it is traumatising! But not only that it’s incredibly unprofessional rude and totally inappropriate.
How dare she!
I don’t blame you for having those thoughts about her.
I hope you manage to process how you’re feeling with your T as soon as possible!
Lots of hugs