Hi Suzy!!
So glad to see you! I'm so sorry you are having such a difficult time right now. But (as you've said, you have had this anxiety many times before)sooooo this is temporary it WILL pass. I like that you have a personal plan, that's important.
I use the "Just For Today", it's saved my life more than once. Go to the Depression Forum, under Depression Resources & it is there, this may help make you feel better & give you direction & guidance in the meantime. Please PM anytime I'd love to hear from You!!
BTW Go easy on Yourself Ok!