It's not like I'm 50 years old. I still have time. I just need to chillax.

But everything is really piecing all together - In a really painful way. But I'll live.

I just screwed up... Everything isn't what it seems.

I feel alone + always feel like my brain/body is on fire. People can take high spiritual paths, and do what ever else.. Be free of ignorance, achieve success in their own personal lives - Based on this pattern of particular reality.

It's in all the songs, the movies and behind the lies of propaganda, culture, brainwashing.... It is a purgatory - But it will always be that way. We just have to make the right decisions to get to a good place. I've made so many mistakes but they are all apart of the thing - To the great magnificence of it.

I like that I'm not special and no one is - But I'm happy that I have a mother that lifts me up, a dad that lifts me up + others. My family all just wants what's best for me. I was misguided by even myself.

I just never got how people can dismiss another person's life/dehumanize - Then again, others murder and do other worse things.

It's nature. It's life.