I found hospitals to be a Relief Refuge.I read the above posts & agree 100% w/ them, you are not alone.In the hospital experts will teach & help you learn techniques, coping thoughts & coping strategies to deal with those demons when they come around. Getting help w/ my T & the hospital - saved my life. My focus on life is different. I'm happier, my life is good, oh yes I still have urges,craving, bad depressions, but now I am in more control.