Make it a project to find a far better job! You will be happier for having done so! Throw your energy into this project and make it a goal- "I am going to land myself a much more enjoyable job" - this alone will change your life!

When one is so down and out in life, we can turn to destructive people and patterns and get stuck there. You are very stuck! The only way to "un-stick" yourself is to make a deliberate change in your life, and to make something or all in your life better. But don't try to do it all at once. Focus on one goal at a time, which is why I suggest focusing on changing your job that you hate. When you find a job that you can actually like and enjoy, it will open new doors for you in lots of ways. It will renew your outlook on life, give you more energy and a new/different focus in life, and you can meet new people and make new friendships.

Try it.