Thank you Quietmind. I'm so sorry you are still missing your T too. Like you say, I just think it is testament to how much the relationship meant, and the changes that came because of it. It really is a strange thing isn't it, and I'm just glad we are able to find others who 'get it'. Kudos for trying to refrain from googling your T. It's hard, bit it's for the best I think.... Absolutely, one day at a time, one day at a time. Thank you, friend.