MAYBE I'm just supposed to re-create it all with MYSELF???!

That realization just stunned me cold when the lyrics to a Stevie Nicks song came into my head from "After The Glitter Fades":

"We all chase something
And maybe this is a dream
The timeless face of a rock and roll
Woman while her heart breaks
Oh you know the dream keeps coming
Even when you forget to feel"

see this is one of the things that i love so much about poetry is that you never know what someone else is going to get out of it.