And the reason I am so scared of losing my job has to do with my marriage and the strain this will put on my marriage (ie, financial strain). I can actually deal with it if I do lose my job, as long as I don't allow my self esteem to plummet, but it's my husband I am concerned about. He was so stressed recently when I took a leave of absence for medical reasons. At the same time, I didn't have any financial coverage for that leave of absence, so money was very tight. IF I do lose my job and go on unemployment benefits, money will be very tight again, and then my husband will subsequently be very stressed again. I am afraid of placing more strain on my marriage. This is the crux of my concern, and of course, being able to find another job.