Hi everyone,

I would really need some support from your community at the moment. In January I discovered I was pregnant with my boyfriend, whom I was only dating 5 months. We both didn't want children at the time, but our condom broke and the next day pill apparently didn't work. He is in a complicated moment right now, going through a divorce and already has two children. The decision was therefore mutual, it was just not the right time for any of us, although for the future we do wish a child together.
Since then however I have been having nightmares and a general state of depression, accompanied by panic attacks sometimes. I do spend a lot of time with his children and after being together for more than 3 full days, I get extremely sad. I still do think that this was the right decision, but I find myself crying for no reason or so sad it hurts. At first I blamed it on the hormonal changes associated with abortion, but this cannot be the case anymore.
It is also extremely hard to get physiological support here in Germany, and I could not find any free office until now...
If you have any suggestions, I would really appreciate it.

Thank you very much in advance!