My former step-father whom my mother married when I was a small child was extremely abusive to both of us. Which included; mental, physical, sexual and financial abuse.

They got separated when I was in my mid-teens, but later got back together before they split for good.

I have also been sexually assaulted by other men at different times including by someone I was in a complicated relationship with. There was also physical abuse. I still have a protection order against the man I was in a relationship with and I had one against my former step-father but let it expire.

Sometimes I feel like there is something wrong with me because I have been abused by multiple men. My step-father and one time my mother when she was angry said that I could get any man to hit me. And sometimes I still feel like that.

I also feel bad because I allowed some limited sexual things to happen with the man I was in a relationship with. Because of this the police detective I spoke to didn't think that he did anything wrong even if what I was saying was true.

I have extreme PTSD among other mental problems.

I really need some support. Thank You