dear e: I am only writing this inhere, b ecaise I refuse to write you 3 emails in a week, a week! this I pathetic.

wait: I never wrote what I wanted to say, Iam waiting for you to tell me that I email too much, that I am too needy. a burden. I can't do that to you, ok? I know so far you have been reassuring that I am not too much, and if writing helps, keep doing it. but WHAT IF it DOES overwhelm you? see there is always the other show to drop.

also t, thanks for trying to connect with me feve if it wasn't a phone call.

anxiety, it is a biotch,