Thank you so much for your openness and being willing to share your story! I relate to absolutely all of this. Especially the word "burden" which is one of the key words I'd use to identify myself with others when I'm a sad mood.

I also withdraw from friends, assuming that they are spending time with me out of kindness to me and as a favor to me - not because I can actually make their lives better in any way or have anything to offer. I don't even know where to begin in healing from this, apart from trying to challenge these stories. Posting posts like this one and hoping that even if someone just identifies with the words I'm writing, it can make their day better and the world a better place.

Just wanted to say that your post has really helped me in not feeling so alone. So thank you for that!