No not a game. Psych testing of my memory/cognitive ability by a specialist aka neuropsychologist. I forget eveyrthing and its gotten worse. I describe it as brain fog but my PCP wants me to get testing done to make sure I am ok because we checked and it is def. not my thyroid (I have an underactive one) and that sometimes gets off balance. I asked my therapist today if I should really go and he said its not a bad idea. He thinks a lot of my memory difficutlies could be related to my anxiety levels and how stress affects me. Its my number vulnerability factor that hes noticed but he said it could be helpful. He wants me to go to his old coworker bc he feels hed be the right one to go to price wise and experience.

on a side note he started talking about what Id have to do when I go and some of it was Id have to share my trauma story so he can get a full picture of my struggles. How do you share ten years of hell with a stranger? since i left ive been having panic attacks and crying today. I guess he triggered me IDK it was weird. I was in and still kinda am in an ok mood. im just jumpy and anxious. I just had a full blown panic attack a bit ago with the sweating and dizziness and all the fun stuff.