I find what helps me is to be active doing work. Housework, dog-care, shopping, etc. Today i felt particularly bad. All the garbages were overflowing. I made a deal with myself that i would just change the worst one and if i felt like stopping after, okay. But i ended up doing them all plus three other tasks!

I also knew it would make me feel better to go outside with my dog even tho it's overcast and damp. So i just put on all our gear and got out there and it was nice. I would have stayed longer but it started raining. I came in and kept our gear on and went out on the balcony. I really like my balcony, i have a great view of a main road to watch the cars on. I enjoyed it also and would have stayed longer but my dog doesn't care for the balcony and fussed to come in.

I've been telling myself that my depression is just a chemical imbalance in my brain. Not enough serotonin and dopamine and too much cortisol. I've been telling myself that everything is fine, i have enough money and a stable home, stable meds, stable doctor. This unpleasant sense of everything being out-of-control and on the brink-of-disaster is just my brain lying to me.

Everything is fine.