I have felt so off the past few days. I don't feel like myself. I feel frustrated and like I am stuck in the same place all the time. I am becoming easily frustrated with my IRL friends because when I try to explain these feelings they don't understand or tell me to quit being so negative. I'm not being negative, they just don't understand my anxiety or the fact I feel like I can never get a grip on the nightmares and memories.

I also just feel like I am just stuck, For them they are moving away, going of to 4 year universty's, meeting new people, and I'm stuck here with the same people,living at home,going to a two year community college, A good one but it still frustrates me because over half of my graduating class is going there. They also just don't understand I don't have the money to go running around all the time. I have no vechile and I have to save for it, I sometimes have to help my family out with bills or grocerys.

I just feel so alone and frustrated. I made steps to better myself but I'm not getting anywhere at all, noone in IRL understands and they probably never will. I feel like I'm running in circles, I don't mean to whine it's just that I'm frustarted and I don't know where to post this, and I just need someone to talk to.