Dear T,
I guess I was needlessly worried that you'd say something today about my comment in the email. I suppose I could have brought that up, but didn't want to dredge something up if you'd just let it go (or if it hadn't even bothered you at all). Think we had some good insight at the end of today's session that I need to think on some more. I definitely think feeling that I need to make the perfect choice (which of course isn't possible) plays a role in the one thing we talked about.

And I suspect feeling I need to do other things perfectly is part of it, too--like "I'm going to exercise 3 times a week," then if I only manage to do so twice, feeling like I've failed, making it more likely that I give up. Instead of thinking "Well, I did exercise twice, need to try again next week to hit the goal" or "Twice is better than not at all!" or "This was a really busy week, so it's OK that I only went for two walks."

How did you not realize I had strong health anxiety though? I mean, beyond and predating Covid? I guess maybe it's something I just don't talk about much?

Now it feels like a long time between now and Monday...I'm used to just Friday to Monday. I mean, it's just one day long. And I got through 6 days OK (well, I did send an email, but otherwise), so I can certainly get through 4, right? And I used to do Thurs.-Mon. all the time. I suppose this is good practice for when I switch to twice a week, too. Whenever that happens! Hopefully by summer? I'm thinking D not being in school will take a lot of stress off.

And I'm glad you don't intend to stop in-person anytime soon. (Please don't go digging into statistics and change your mind!)

Love,
LT