It's the reason that I look for an insane amount of different perspectives - But I can only go so far with that because of the desperation I have to impulsively do something harmful to feel better.

My emotions control my thoughts.. So therapy would help with the feeling, thought, action triangle thing.. I could learn about it myself but really... there's just too much information in my head. I say to myself, yeah I understand something enough.. And then move onto something else..