Hi. I have been having trust issues with my girlfriend since I started dating her. I have anxiety, 3 bdp traits and depression. I have totally gone off on my girlfriend in texts because I didn't believe what she was telling me. I have dug into her past and projected my fears on here. I'm trying to amend my behavior. She has cut off many of the things we did together to try to help herself and the relationship. I finally got to a point where I felt like I could be ok. I impatiently waited for a call from her tonight and asked what she was doing. I went for a drive because I was feeling emotional and depressed. She knew that I was acting on behavior I'm trying to amend and was not happy. I'm trying to get better. I am seeing a therapist weekly and a psychiatrist next week I've never had a healthy relationship and I'm trying to have one with her. I feel like if I practiced patience tonight, we would have had a good night. I'm also unemployed and looking for work. I don't have much to offer as an independent man at this time. I want to save this relationship more than anything. She is a beautiful independent woman. I have had a strong connection with here when things are good. She is really trying to accept me and I keep failing. Please let me know if you have any questions or advise.